I would push it. Without even thinking, I would punch that button so hard. I know there are a thousand quotes saying to live in the moment. But imagine that living in the moment is killing your spirit. I just want to know what my future holds. If I am able to have my family and be who I want to be. Not knowing is hard. It's too hard. The disappointment of treatment not working. The disappointment of a one time good cycle that made a baby. The disappointment of not bringing that baby home. The pain of not knowing if you will ever bring a baby home.
If you were living through this..No, wait..not living. If you were existing through this, you would push the fast forward button, too.
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