Monday, April 17, 2017

Dylan's birth story

One week ago we had a baby. After all these years of us waiting and doing everything we could to have a baby, we had our perfect little guy.

On Sunday, April 9th at 9pm we checked into the hospital. We had a planned induction. I was 3.5cm dilated already, so they started me on a low dose induction med through my IV and told me to get some sleep. I was too excited and nervous to get much sleep that night, I was so ready to meet my baby. The next morning, I was 5cm dilated so they began to up the meds. I had high blood pressure so they gave me a med to lower it. A few hours later I was fully dilated. Pushing began! I received an epidural for the pain. I pushed and pushed.

After 3 hours of this, my Dr said that he thinks this is a big baby and I had a narrow pelvic bone. He said I could keep pushing or move onto a c-section. If you asked me what I did not want to happen before this day, I would have told you a c-section. I wanted to be able to be there and hold my baby immediately after having him, I knew having a c-section would change that. But I knew I could not push any longer especially when there is a big possibility that it wouldn't change anything and I would still need a c-section later.

I received a second epidural in preparation for the c-section. It did not take. My blood pressure dropped way too low and I needed oxygen. My husband was worried I wasn't breathing. The oxygen helped and I was stable. They wheeled me into the operating room and my husband couldn't come with right away while they prepped me.

Then I received a spinal which numbed me from the neck down. I was a little out of it and was just asking where my husband was. Finally he was able to join me and I asked him if everything was going to be okay. He assured me it would be okay.

Then I heard a cry. Oh I heard the perfect little cry. This is the best sound I will ever hear in my entire life.

My husband was with him while the nurse cleaned him off and then they brought him over to me.

I got to see him for a minute before my husband and the nurse took him to weigh/measure him. My surgery had to be finished up before I could go get a better look at my baby. It was probably the longest 30 or so minutes of my life laying there waiting to go be with my husband and our new baby.

Dylan Robert Baxter was born on April 10th, 2017 at 3:37pm. He was 8 lbs 10 oz, 21 inches long, and had a 14.5 inch head! He is perfect. We are in love.

His birth isn't what I imagined. But in the end all I wanted was a healthy baby. If I got asked about his birth day, I will recall his cry, his luscious dark hair, my husband with his arms wrapped around him, and then feeling my baby laying on my chest.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

The month of April

April has become a hard month for me over these past years.

On this day, I have been pregnant 3 out of the last 4 years. Finally here I am almost 39 weeks pregnant and baby boy will be here soon. I have waited to hold our baby for so long and I cannot believe I will get to in 4-5 days.

And I just want to say:

I love you
I love you
I love you
my baby.